trust

Trust...it is such an easy thing to say, but such a difficult thing to do. I am continually struggling to trust in the One, who is the only One that won't let me down. I battle the demons of doubt-my husband won't be able to find work, we will lose our boys, we will sink into a financial pit. I know that we are called to
"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will direct your paths." Proverbs 3:5,6
I find myself talking to friends saying that I will just have to trust, yet it is all words. I am not trusting in God right now. I am trying to control it all. I am panicking, and not allowing God to work in these situations. In all actuality, God is working, I am just blind, because I am choosing to run in fear. I am choosing to try figure things out on my own. I am choosing to doubt that God can handle it. Forgive me Father.

Dear Lord,
I have taken back the reigns, and I am running wild. I am trying to control my life instead of allowing You to work in me and the situations that we are in. I am sorry. Father God, I give you my life...again. Please give me peace, and a not so gentle shove when I push away from You, and run in the ways of the world. Lord, I pray that my eyes will be open to all that you are doing in my life, and the lives of others around me. I pray that I will seek and see your guidance. Lord, above all, I pray that my life will be a shining example of your love, to others. This world is not about me, and my comforts, but about bringing glory to you. Thank you for your grace and forgiveness. Thank you for your love. Amen